lol...Sarn I have no need for a younger man.
CC: I have been fortunate enough to have those that I considered a friend that never push me one way or the other. My best friend never does that, she always leave the decision to me. Because ultimately, it is mine to make. She generally makes me see the bigger picture of things. As for as the ladies bible study goes, they are in their late 50s-60s and one is 80. Well, I got back from it and didn't tell anyone lol. One of the lady had more problems than mine and we prayed for her instead.
A year an a half ago my son had said that, he doesn't think my husband loves me (leave it to a kid to be honest) I had told my husband about it and he somehow brushed it off. Well, yesterday, we started to talk about something and I asked him...when daddy talks and acts does it look like daddy loves mommy? He answered me in such a sad face and tone...he said, not really. I then asked him, is it fair for mommy to stay with daddy if he doesn't love me? My son was sad, but he said, NO. And honestly, I was crushed. I believed a kid see more than we give them credit.
So, now I have to decide what is best. I don't think it's fair for anyone right now. Especially for my son. Kids, will not thank you for staying in a marriage because of them. They sensed everything. My son is such an observant kid that he takes in all the information. I know if I take the big step it will changed everything.
My husband has changed but in my son's eyes it is not enough for him to believe that love is there. I think we can try to fool ourselves but fooling a kid is harder than one think.