Chapter 14
"You did this?!!!"
Gesturing to his new hairstyle, which I think is really cute. I like it.
"Hhmm yes"
my voice is shy.
"What were you thinking ?! Are you out of
your mind ?! This is crazy?!"
He's breathing hard, chest rising up and down.
"It's not my first time , I've cut hair
before..."
I try to defend myself. Well technically i used
to cut my bangs and Rei's (my sister's).
"And you think... You're any GOOD?!"
He is fixing his hair.. touching it, and hoping
for a miracle for his hair to grow back.
"I -I never said I'm GOOD."
I can't help it ,I laugh now..hard.
He turns his head to look at me. His cheeks are
red, ears burning.
"AND Why the hell is it hot in
here?!!"
He storms toward me, walking and I think he is
about to wrestle me.
He is so close , I need to step few steps back,
and he moves as I do. I'm cornered, my back on my desk , he swipes his sweat
and grabs something behind me on my desk, he takes his inhaler.
He takes in a sharp breath. Inhaling…
"Can you please..."
He grips the front of his shirt. Gasping for
air,
I do what I can to help
him I grab him by the shoulder, his arms tense and I can feel heat radiating
within us. I let him seat on Kate's bed.
worrying, he doesn't look good.. He can't
breathe properly. I look for the controller and thanks heaven it fell near the
side of my desk. I change the temp. low to 16 Celsius.
Barry's head is facing down. I know his having
his asthma attack, which I didn't know he had, and I'm so useless.
He lifts his head to look at me.
"Aisis, I'm sorry that I went here without
telling you.( sharp inhale) trust me, I wanted to call or text you but you
never gave your number to me, and I'm pretty sure I mentioned to Kate...(inhaling…)"
I cut him off. I kneel in front of him.
And let my hands rest on his knees
"Barry look it's okay .. I need you to
catch your breathe. inhale ... exhale slowly. Do not panic."
I do what I learned from having to hangout
with my bear(nadech) back then, I usually tell him to relax.
"Barry, think of a peace beautiful place
you want to visit."
I say it in my most sweet and calmest
tone, I look him in the eyes, sincerely.
He nods and do what I say. He slowly regain his
usual skin color, which indicates everything is going back to normal. Thank you
heavens.
"Aisis, I am actually here to give you
something..."
I freeze, Barry's hands touch mine. He looks at
me and at this moment everything is in slow-mo.
Is he going to kiss me, is that what's he's
going to give. A long lasting kiss, an apology for kissing another girl and a
thank you for being here with him. And he doesn't I'm so delusional, he search
something in his pocket. Brings out his wallet and shows me two UNITRAP GOLD
cards.
"This .. I guessing
your dad have told you about it.. Right?"
No way! I grab one Untrip
card from him and read.
----------------------
•Untrip gold card•
NADECH BARRY KUGICHOCOYA
9826-636-1720
----------------------
"Hey, that's
mine."
He takes it from me and hands me my gold card.
Still in shock I try to put things all together. I am maybe smart when it comes
to academic, but I'm so slow to things that I've already pushed back down in my
memory and that is NADECH(bear) the boy. Who I only knew as nadech the bear and
now Barry is the bear who I wished to forget, like the way he left me alone, 11
years ago.
"Na-nadech.."
I try to get it out of my mouth. All this time
he knew for sure who I was, and dares to kiss me and leave like it's was
nothing again!
Inside of me burns to flames ,furiously I can't
control my emotions and I slap him.. Slap him the way he deserves it.
"I should have called the security in the
first place , I'm so stupid to come near you and even let you stay here."
Eyes wide open he softly touch his cheek ,where
I slapped him. Hurt I can see he is surprised to be in pain.
I walk to my floor to grab my phone and call for
help.
"Give me that."
Barry grabs my shoulder to face him and takes my
iphone away from my reach.
"What are you thinking?, are really that
stupid!"
He is in no mood in taking my action.
And the hell he just called me stupid. I stump
on his foot hard.
"Oouuccch!"
he hiss in pain. I take my phone from his
and try to run.
"Where do u think..."
He locks his arms around me like a cage from
behind, and I struggle. I fight him back, he slightly lifts me from the ground.
I kick and kick but he takes me somewhere. Just like that, i am on my bed. He
pins me down and with my both hands on his grip.
"Do you think calling the security will do
any good? HUH?!"
He grinds his teeth, and dimples on both of his
cheek appears.
My body is not reacting the way it should be, I
should kick him ,push him, slap him even more , because clearly this looks like
his is about to harass me. And I don't do any of it, because being close to him
sends electricity that vibrates to my ever blood that lets me forget the
reality.
"Don't call them.."
He leans even closer, and try to loosen
his grip, and I don't want him to, so I pretend to struggle again to fight.
"Yaya... Please If you call them, we'll be
both in trouble. You do know boys aren't allowed to stay in girls'
cabins."
He shakes his head, like he just said a wrong
word. He called me by my nickname 'yaya' he said it like the way he used too,
he seems to return as the nadech bear that I know.
My heart beats in a state of magical rhythm.
I shouldn't feel this, but He makes me and
now I can't move.
"Promise you won't fight back, I just need
to talk to you."
He whispers. I nod. He lies
beside me, lets go of my other hand , but still holds my other by wrist on my
right. Everything feels safe , everything feels right. I hold on to this, as I let
the time goes..
We were quite for awhile side
by side. It feels like the time we're in is extraordinary.
"what do you need to
tell me? "
…….
He turns to look at me,
while I lie face the ceiling.
"Aisis.. "
"why did you cut my
hair?"
I think of the answer he
needs to hear. Not that I got so annoyed other girls get to mess it up and I don’t.
"hhmm.. coz I think
you needed one. Besides it looks good in you." I feel my cheeks burn.
"yeah, I think I do..
well thank for you giving me an asthma attack , and for giving this hair"
I can sense he's not ever
happy with his new style.
"look clearly I know
you are mad, coz obviously you just slapped me, but listen. I cut my hair ,
without my knowledge. I think we're quits now."
I silently laugh to myself.
But part of my feels like quits is not even close for us being fair, he just
kissed me without telling why.
" we should start new and Whatever it is that I have done , let's just forget it."
"okay?"he sounds like douche.
Every fantasy building
around us vanished , when He said the word 'forget it', oh so he wants me to
forget about it, while the fact he never even explained or asked for an
apology? . I feel tears filling my eyes, staring at the ceiling ,I do my best
to not let a tear fall. And now I will never get the answers to my questions: why
leave like it was nothing, why make feel special then later turn your back on
me and made one of your trash that you just want to forget? I've been asking
too many questions . just like, that I let
him near me this close on my bed. Seconds after ,he is here breaking my chest
open and pouring acids all over me. To let me forget everything. Trust me
nadech I want to forget each cell of you
living in me and the us, though I know there were never an Us to you ., I want
them to turn to ash. My heart is shattering in pain, tears falling. I turn to
the other side, and let free from his hand, to quickly wipe tears, I don’t want
him to know.
"yeah .. okay." Im
trying to be strong as I could.
"Aisis, I will be the
one to help out and guide you and stuff,
so you better tell what's wrong? When there is, So we can just forget about everything
in the past."
"oh ! it's fine. I forgot
about it already, no need to remind me.. "
lying to him and to myself
pieces of me turns to hurting flames.
HELP ME OUT ? seriously… I
don’t think he can, help me out at all. He just made things worst.
"great " he
scoots closer. I hate it when he tries to be close, like an arms trying to be
my support, when he is just about to wreck my base to scrap.
He tries to make me turn
to look at him, but I don’t. he stand up and walks to me side, and kneel in
front of me.
He goes and explaining the
things we need to accomplish, to have my grades check and do a part time job. He
promised to make sure all the thing I need should be given, that I have nothing
to worry about. He'll be my personal adult sort of guardian in school.
This only means more time
with him, torture to me.
"lastly aisis about
the time at the CHASM…"
His ears are turning pink …No..why
is he mentioning this, coz I know him too well now, I know he'll just brush it
off like it was just a mistake.
"I didn’t know it was
you, you looked so different and I had
to go, I didn’t see after the countdown…"
I don’t need to hear him
telling me that it was stupid and it was joke, so reply fast
"its nothing."
I brush him off with my
hand before I could, I sit up and
pretend to be confident like the way Kate does when he shows off to boys.
"ah.. the kiss?.."
is he questioning if our kissed was nothing,
you barry ! of course it was not nothing nothing … it was Something Special to
me and you ruined by telling me to forget it… I hate you.
"yeah, you know kiss…
girls and boys do it… so.. yeah.."
Im trying to keep my causal
tone, like I have done serious kissing before with other boys, but the reality it’s
only him I've kissed in my entire life.
"OH.."
Starching the back of his
neck ,He seems so surprise. ha! U think you’re so handsome who can simply
offend me with a kiss… well the moment you crushed me a while ago, made me
realize. I am better off without fantasizing over 'US' that I know you never even
wanted. I'm going to prove you wrong. I do
and I will live life without your faced dimples, scent and those eyes that will
distract me from staring to build the new Asis Ya Sprebrown.
He lets out a long sigh.
" okay then , hi ! I
am Nadech Barry Kugichocoya. "
I am already standing
ready to send this douche off the door. who minutes ago the person im so dreamingly
into and now his the screw up kissing all the girls guy, who is the least person I want to share any
moment with.
"and your Aisis Yaya
Sperbrown ."
He is eyeing me for some reason.
"its only Ya, and stop
calling me yaya, call me Aisis."
Mad I say it without
looking at irritating brown eyes.
"oh oh … alright
Aisis, don’t be mad."
His acting cutie like a
little boy pouting All of his charms radiating in the air, im holding , and
holding myself together don’t you dare Aisis!! fall for that cutesy douche Nadech.
I grin a smile to him, telling him im so done
with ya kidda look.
"nadech I am no near
mad. I just need to sleep now, care if u to leave my room now."
"oh.. uh-huh it's
late.."
I raise one eyebrow eyeing
him, he looks lost and fragile I can
feel he still wants to talk. We there is no more to talk about us. Everything to
me is clear iam nothing to him and his only the boy I kissed, it's not like he
will be my last (crossing my fingers).