hi everybody,
I've been debating with myself for the past couple of months now to whether go to school in another city away from home or go to one near home. i want to go far away so i'll have my own independence but the pressure of my parents always make me undecided...i am torn from what i want to do and from what my parents want me to do...my dad eveyday constantly bothers me about this issue. Plus he always tries to convince to stay so ill be able to help out the family pay house bills and everything but im afraid that if i dont take this chance to leave ill never get the chance to go until when im marry. i have older brothers and sisters who've decided to stay home and their college life has been "go to school come home go to school come home" they're not envolve in anything and it seems like thay've been waisting their whole college life in doing nothing at all and i dont want to end up like that. high school years is already bad enough for me because i chose not to do anything because most of the time my father will disapprove of it saying it is not important. that 's why at times i dont even ask him anymore i just dont do the fun activities that i want to do, the things that i am interested in. i know that part of that is my fault for not standing up for what i want to do but now i really want to go to college in another city that i wont have my parents there watching my every move controlling me in everything. i jus want some freedom and space. plus my father is also making me feel guilty about leaving. its just so hard to decide rite now, i want to go but i dont want to disappoint my parents either for leaving them. right now i need some advice or opinions from others. thanks for whoever is willing to tell me what they think.
I've been debating with myself for the past couple of months now to whether go to school in another city away from home or go to one near home. i want to go far away so i'll have my own independence but the pressure of my parents always make me undecided...i am torn from what i want to do and from what my parents want me to do...my dad eveyday constantly bothers me about this issue. Plus he always tries to convince to stay so ill be able to help out the family pay house bills and everything but im afraid that if i dont take this chance to leave ill never get the chance to go until when im marry. i have older brothers and sisters who've decided to stay home and their college life has been "go to school come home go to school come home" they're not envolve in anything and it seems like thay've been waisting their whole college life in doing nothing at all and i dont want to end up like that. high school years is already bad enough for me because i chose not to do anything because most of the time my father will disapprove of it saying it is not important. that 's why at times i dont even ask him anymore i just dont do the fun activities that i want to do, the things that i am interested in. i know that part of that is my fault for not standing up for what i want to do but now i really want to go to college in another city that i wont have my parents there watching my every move controlling me in everything. i jus want some freedom and space. plus my father is also making me feel guilty about leaving. its just so hard to decide rite now, i want to go but i dont want to disappoint my parents either for leaving them. right now i need some advice or opinions from others. thanks for whoever is willing to tell me what they think.