bleu_ladee
sarNie Egg
My secrets are coming out like crazy and Phong is finding them out. I dont know what to say or anything anymore. He found out that I had a KINKY side to me that he never seen before. I have changed so much in the last 3 years that when I do think about it I SHOCK myself! I mean he has nothing against it and really wants to see it; but I refuse. Finding out so much he was like DAYMN YOUR MORE THEN MY CHICKS! I thought to myself well at least you think so; but I am not like that anymore. I felt like I changed for the better but yet guys seem to be SO ATTRACTED TO THAT KINKY-NESS! He's been teasing me and joking about it and eh its not like I havent heard of his SMUT too...
And lately within the last 6 months of our friendship he told me that one of his GIRL FRIEND (as in a friend who is a girl) asked him repeatedly to move to Minnesota with him. At first I didnt mind; and now I do. I dont want him to leave me. This girl friend of his turned him down when he asked her out due to age and seeing him playing other girls but I know down deeply that this GIRL still loves him. But he tells me she's just a friend and nothing more. I can say I am not that dumb! I can see that there are still feelings between the two of you and... and... I dont know what more I can say...
Its probably the 5th time he told me this and I told him to just go? Is that the right answer to say... Should I tell him "no, dont go; stay with me" I dont know. He loves his parents dearly and so I dont know. I told him today to not go because I would be losing a close "friend" and he just laugh and joked. I dont know what more to say. I confessed my likeness to him and he only joked with me more. I dont know what more to say to him to show him that I really care for him and I do love him. I showed him everything and yet he takes it as a joke. I guess I am nothing more then a friend to him. I GIVE UP! la la la la!!!!
And lately within the last 6 months of our friendship he told me that one of his GIRL FRIEND (as in a friend who is a girl) asked him repeatedly to move to Minnesota with him. At first I didnt mind; and now I do. I dont want him to leave me. This girl friend of his turned him down when he asked her out due to age and seeing him playing other girls but I know down deeply that this GIRL still loves him. But he tells me she's just a friend and nothing more. I can say I am not that dumb! I can see that there are still feelings between the two of you and... and... I dont know what more I can say...
Its probably the 5th time he told me this and I told him to just go? Is that the right answer to say... Should I tell him "no, dont go; stay with me" I dont know. He loves his parents dearly and so I dont know. I told him today to not go because I would be losing a close "friend" and he just laugh and joked. I dont know what more to say. I confessed my likeness to him and he only joked with me more. I dont know what more to say to him to show him that I really care for him and I do love him. I showed him everything and yet he takes it as a joke. I guess I am nothing more then a friend to him. I GIVE UP! la la la la!!!!