Buddies... Ima so not sure what to feel right now... In a way I feel disgusted and angry; also at the same time Ima starting to really HATE hmong guys. That is why I MUST NOT have any attraction towards them cause they alwaise to SHIET around me that bugs the F*cken Crap outta me... So I was wondering if I should let my homeboies know of this...
Last nite one of my boys called me asking for a favor. I agreed because they have alwaise been there for me thru thick and thin; I thought giving a place for one of their relative/friend to stay for a few days wouldnt hurt. I did tell my boy that I am rarely home and etc... Its tat my boys NEVER ASK anything from me and this was the least I could do in return. Anywaise last nite my homeboys and the friend along with me hanged out and drank at my crib. Yes, it was a workday and I am a light drinker now cause I dont drink as much as I used to... Butta anyhow we kicked it all nite until midnite and my homeboys left. Then me and this FRIEND or RELATIVE of theirs chatting until 2 just getting to know one another and see if maybe we can click and staying with me dont have to be such a pain. Dude Ima nice person, down to earth, relaxing, and seriously I dont give a damn about anything... As long as you respect me as a person then I respect you back. I did tell the FRIEND this straite up as well... So as the nite goes... 2 o'clock rolls around and I head off to sleep. I told the FRIEND that if he needs anything to KNOCK on my door...
Suddenly around 3:42am I felt a hand around my waist and sum1 under my blanket. I FREAKED OUT. I was like WTF!!! I quickly turned around and I was like damn I drank 4 beers and probly 16oz of Hurricane butta Ima not tipsy or drunk yo... So I was tried as a mo-fo too cause this morning I have to wake up at 7. So the reason to why he was in bed with me was that he was trying to get me to led him my car. I hesitated a few times saying NO and NO and NO... Each time I try to say NO to him he kept getting closer with me in bed and I was getting rather uncomfy. I then said FINE TAKE IT... WELL JUS PRETEND THAT YOU TOOK IT SECRETLY WITHOUT ME KNOWING OKAE... He replied THAT WAS COLD but AITES! So he got out of my bed and took off with my car; I KO after that. I was way too tired to even think or say anymore. This morning I woke up feeling so sore. Sore between my legs... I thought to myself that if anything was to happen I woulda know and I dont want to be thinking in that way first of all... So I was driving to work and I really wanted to tell my homeboys what happened last nite cause to me it was unacceptable and I didnt feel respected. I mean this FRIEND is very cool and nice and open butta the WHOLE THING with me in the bed was too much for me. SO SHOULD I KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT OR TELL MY HOMEBOYS. I MEAN MY BOYS HAVE ALWAISE BEEN THERE FOR ME AND ETC... I DONT WANT THEM TO THINK THAT I HATE THEIR FRIEND OR ANYTHING. AND THE REASON TO WHY I HESITATED TO LET THE FREIND TAKE MY CAR WAS THAT HE WAS GONA GO BUY SUM DRUGS AT SUM DUDES HOUSE IF I HEARD THAT CORRECTLY WHILE SO TIRED OUT. IMA NOT SURE... I DUNO... OR MAYBE SHOULD I WAIT TO TELL MY BOYS AFTER HE LEAVES. I DONT WANT TO TELL THEM WHEN HE STILL HERE. I SAY FEEL FREE TO STAY AT MY CRIB AND ALL... I SERIOUSLY DONT WANT TO GO HOME ANYMORE.... I FEEL SO VIOLATED IF THAT IS THE CORRECT TERM TO USE... HELP ME BUDDIES.....
Last nite one of my boys called me asking for a favor. I agreed because they have alwaise been there for me thru thick and thin; I thought giving a place for one of their relative/friend to stay for a few days wouldnt hurt. I did tell my boy that I am rarely home and etc... Its tat my boys NEVER ASK anything from me and this was the least I could do in return. Anywaise last nite my homeboys and the friend along with me hanged out and drank at my crib. Yes, it was a workday and I am a light drinker now cause I dont drink as much as I used to... Butta anyhow we kicked it all nite until midnite and my homeboys left. Then me and this FRIEND or RELATIVE of theirs chatting until 2 just getting to know one another and see if maybe we can click and staying with me dont have to be such a pain. Dude Ima nice person, down to earth, relaxing, and seriously I dont give a damn about anything... As long as you respect me as a person then I respect you back. I did tell the FRIEND this straite up as well... So as the nite goes... 2 o'clock rolls around and I head off to sleep. I told the FRIEND that if he needs anything to KNOCK on my door...
Suddenly around 3:42am I felt a hand around my waist and sum1 under my blanket. I FREAKED OUT. I was like WTF!!! I quickly turned around and I was like damn I drank 4 beers and probly 16oz of Hurricane butta Ima not tipsy or drunk yo... So I was tried as a mo-fo too cause this morning I have to wake up at 7. So the reason to why he was in bed with me was that he was trying to get me to led him my car. I hesitated a few times saying NO and NO and NO... Each time I try to say NO to him he kept getting closer with me in bed and I was getting rather uncomfy. I then said FINE TAKE IT... WELL JUS PRETEND THAT YOU TOOK IT SECRETLY WITHOUT ME KNOWING OKAE... He replied THAT WAS COLD but AITES! So he got out of my bed and took off with my car; I KO after that. I was way too tired to even think or say anymore. This morning I woke up feeling so sore. Sore between my legs... I thought to myself that if anything was to happen I woulda know and I dont want to be thinking in that way first of all... So I was driving to work and I really wanted to tell my homeboys what happened last nite cause to me it was unacceptable and I didnt feel respected. I mean this FRIEND is very cool and nice and open butta the WHOLE THING with me in the bed was too much for me. SO SHOULD I KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT OR TELL MY HOMEBOYS. I MEAN MY BOYS HAVE ALWAISE BEEN THERE FOR ME AND ETC... I DONT WANT THEM TO THINK THAT I HATE THEIR FRIEND OR ANYTHING. AND THE REASON TO WHY I HESITATED TO LET THE FREIND TAKE MY CAR WAS THAT HE WAS GONA GO BUY SUM DRUGS AT SUM DUDES HOUSE IF I HEARD THAT CORRECTLY WHILE SO TIRED OUT. IMA NOT SURE... I DUNO... OR MAYBE SHOULD I WAIT TO TELL MY BOYS AFTER HE LEAVES. I DONT WANT TO TELL THEM WHEN HE STILL HERE. I SAY FEEL FREE TO STAY AT MY CRIB AND ALL... I SERIOUSLY DONT WANT TO GO HOME ANYMORE.... I FEEL SO VIOLATED IF THAT IS THE CORRECT TERM TO USE... HELP ME BUDDIES.....
