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sarNie Egg
BEST WAY TO JUST HELP ME FROM LYING TO MYSELF!!! I AM DIGGING MYSELF A HOLE DEEPER AND DEEPER!!!
Am I obsessed with my friend?:huh: I keep thinking I am because I just can't let go. So I took the step of asking him out; and were nothing more then JUST FRIENDS NOW! But its GOOD that we are still friends and nothing has changed. But what wrong I have done; ITS REALLY REALLY BAD! I FEEL SO AWFUL BUT I CANT STOP!
Me and my cousin who is out of state created this imaginary person that my cousin played as for quite some time. After awhile playing as this chick my cousin got bored and refused to play along. So i continued to play as this chick that dont even exist whose TOTALLY IN LOVE with my friend. This CHICK we both used everything about me; creating this chick was really fun and playing my friend was actually worth it because not knowing he tells me that the CHICK he talking to he was only playing her as well. When me and my cousin created this IMAGINARY CHICK we used personality of me and my cousin. My friend tells me everyday that there are things he dont like about her and blah blah blah. He really want to see her and etc... but we cant do that. She dont EXIST! But dont get us wrong; we didnt create this chick for him to fall in love with me; just to see what kinda of guy my friend really is only... I have no intention of making him fall for me; jus wanted to really really understand him and get into his head. That's all... So we continue to lie... I find out everything the next day. Sometimes I go on; and sometimes when my cousin is BORED she go on.
LATELY... Me and my friend dont talk much nor do we hang out but then when we do he still continues to flirt with me. I tell him to stop that I dont like it. But he still does. He thinks that i have a shrine made for him. Keeping everything he's given me and blah blah blah. dang Ima NOT that into him sheesh! haha!!! I really try hard to not see him; but its like every 3-4 days we dont see each other he wants to do something. But I end up feeling like I AM THE ONE WANTING TO SEE HIM. When i ask him to hang he be like NO. I am so confused now. I do everything for him; but he does things for me too but when it comes to meeting family or friends he backs off. I tell him were nothing more then friends and I can tell all these people that. If he likes someone I am willing to admit that we just friends. AHHHH!!! I dont know anymore. I feel like I am OBSESSED WITH HIM; CANT SEEM TO LET GO...
Best way to start over? Help me? Best way to cancel this IMAGINARY CHICK OUT FOREVER? BEST WAY TO JUST HELP ME FROM LYING TO MYSELF!!!
Am I obsessed with my friend?:huh: I keep thinking I am because I just can't let go. So I took the step of asking him out; and were nothing more then JUST FRIENDS NOW! But its GOOD that we are still friends and nothing has changed. But what wrong I have done; ITS REALLY REALLY BAD! I FEEL SO AWFUL BUT I CANT STOP!
Me and my cousin who is out of state created this imaginary person that my cousin played as for quite some time. After awhile playing as this chick my cousin got bored and refused to play along. So i continued to play as this chick that dont even exist whose TOTALLY IN LOVE with my friend. This CHICK we both used everything about me; creating this chick was really fun and playing my friend was actually worth it because not knowing he tells me that the CHICK he talking to he was only playing her as well. When me and my cousin created this IMAGINARY CHICK we used personality of me and my cousin. My friend tells me everyday that there are things he dont like about her and blah blah blah. He really want to see her and etc... but we cant do that. She dont EXIST! But dont get us wrong; we didnt create this chick for him to fall in love with me; just to see what kinda of guy my friend really is only... I have no intention of making him fall for me; jus wanted to really really understand him and get into his head. That's all... So we continue to lie... I find out everything the next day. Sometimes I go on; and sometimes when my cousin is BORED she go on.
LATELY... Me and my friend dont talk much nor do we hang out but then when we do he still continues to flirt with me. I tell him to stop that I dont like it. But he still does. He thinks that i have a shrine made for him. Keeping everything he's given me and blah blah blah. dang Ima NOT that into him sheesh! haha!!! I really try hard to not see him; but its like every 3-4 days we dont see each other he wants to do something. But I end up feeling like I AM THE ONE WANTING TO SEE HIM. When i ask him to hang he be like NO. I am so confused now. I do everything for him; but he does things for me too but when it comes to meeting family or friends he backs off. I tell him were nothing more then friends and I can tell all these people that. If he likes someone I am willing to admit that we just friends. AHHHH!!! I dont know anymore. I feel like I am OBSESSED WITH HIM; CANT SEEM TO LET GO...
Best way to start over? Help me? Best way to cancel this IMAGINARY CHICK OUT FOREVER? BEST WAY TO JUST HELP ME FROM LYING TO MYSELF!!!