Prologue
Tonight’s going to be it. Minta thought with utmost certainty. She was going to give herself to the one man that she had loved over the last four years. He has been the only steady thing in her life that has not turned his back on her.
She thought about how he would react, it will be a shock that much she can guarantee. She looked at herself in the tiny mirror. There wasn’t much to fix, her hair has always been boring with a few layers and never has it changed but she’s not going to put too much stock in it. He did once, told her that her hair was nice, and he liked it the way it is. She smiled.
He was a handsome man in his worldly ways. His eyes when they look at her were just as clear as the blue sky, as fresh as the blue sea. They are beautiful whether he was angry with her or when they are just giving her a simple look. Those eyes never hold a grudge towards her and had given her more support and love than anyone in her life, including her drunken father that can’t manage to stay in one place.
She brushed the side of her hair away, to reveal her neck, looking at her nightgown that isn’t the most sexy or fashionable but she’ll just have to make do with what she has. It would serve its purpose since she didn’t think it was going to stay on her that long.
She walked out, looking at her small place. She was going to missed it dearly once she moves out. Closing the door behind her, she doesn’t want to think about life after tonight, reality if she could control will stay away for a few hours. Tomorrow will be a day that she’ll face it as a woman and holds the world on her shoulders by herself. The thought brought a depressing sigh, closing the door she heads out to her car and making way to the one place that will changed her.
Minta stood at the door now a little nervous while she prepared herself to enter his place. She held the key in her hand, and then started to unlock the door quietly. His house was the perfect size for a bachelor. It wasn’t too big nor was it too small and she loved it, she knows the place like the back of her hand, since she split her time between her apartment and here.
She walked to his room like a ghost roaming the hall. The cold hardwood floor reminded her every step with what she’s about to do, but there’s no regret. She’s already here and touching the doorknob to his room, turning it with expert hands, feeling like a thief in the night she got it open in no time.
Minta paused looking at the man she loved with all her heart sleeping soundlessly. She saw his bare chest rising and falling, it was beautiful and one that she had the luxury to lean on many times.
She straightened her nightgown and making as little noise as possible slipped into bed next to him. Looking up the ceiling she said a little prayer hoping her plan would be as successful as she had it in her head. Feeling the warmth from his body she snuggled closer. Turning to him, she yawned when suddenly his arm came around her waist pulling her deeper into bed and touching his chest, her eyes became alert and she was no longer sleepy.
Sila made a satisfaction sound in the night or was it his dream when his arm lay effortlessly on a soft body. He smiled thinking it was a dream and pulled the body even closer. He could smell the berry scent from her hair, taking a deep breath to hold the scent in his nostril his lips curled in a form of a man that held his fantasy in the palm of his hand.
Whoever the girl is, she felt so good next to him, all warm and sexually appealing. Her breasts, smalls ones that is, but he doesn’t mind. He had always been attracted to a petite girl. They held a special place in his heart.
His fingers moved lazily inch by inch up her body, he felt her moaned and squirmed at the same time. His leg moved to cross over hers and a small gasp he thought came out of her mouth. He sure can do something to suppress the sound.
His desire moving fast and he seemed impatient to want her, grabbing for her face he leaned in and took her mouth in his. He felt her paused and a little stiff. He relaxed her by trailing his fingers up and down her body in a seductive movement that seemed to work, her lips soft, molding perfectly to his.
Sila’s lips moved gently at first then took hers possessively and eagerly leaving her breathless, his hand moved to her nightgown and started to remove it but only managed to yank it to one side of her shoulder. Kissing her neck, he moaned feeling the way she offered herself to him without reservation. Whoever she is in his dream, he doesn’t mind her visiting often.
He kissed her lower and lower when suddenly out of the blue he opened his eyes, and when he did shock and horror came instantly to Sila, he shoved her off the bed so hard, Minta landed on the floor knocking her head with a thud, leaving her laying there for a few seconds catching her unsteady breaths.
Sila ran to the door and turned the lights on, when he saw Minta slowly revealing herself, he was knocked speechless and stood there staring at her with unbelievable eyes. What the…
“What the hell are you doing here in the middle of the night?” He roared angry at himself that he was a fool to think it was a dream.
Minta blinked in surprise to say the least at the way he reacted, her lips were swollen from his kisses, her nightgown still hanging loosely to one side of her shoulder and her hair, as usually in straight perfect place.
She stared at him as he was trying so hard to keep under control. The way his hands curled into fists beside him, his breathing hadn’t quite come back to normal yet. His bare chest, she thought looked magnificent in the light. He stood there like a man that held her dreamy little heart in his hand and now squeezing the life out of it. She almost chocked on a sob that is boiling inside of her.
Sila was beside himself, Minta? What crazy idea did she came up with to sneak in his room in the middle of the night? She had lost her mind. He had lost his mind.
He took in a few deep breaths to calm himself more so to give the other part of his body that is throbbing from kissing her to return to normal once again. She looked vulnerable all of a sudden, unsure of herself. Then she looked up at him and he wanted to strangle her for being defiant.
“I thought, I taught you better than to sneak in a man’s room. This is not who you are? Or are you trying to be a girl that holds no value to who she is once she’s about to be twenty- one?”
The question was like a slap in the face to her causing Minta to take a step backward. And all she could think was he didn’t want her. Didn’t love her the way she had loved him. And for one sad moment Minta saw pity in his eyes while hers is starting to die.
“I thought you want me?” Her voice was weak, her heart though beating into a sound of nothing more than a faint noise that is about to vanished all together.
“You are nothing but a kid, who thinks fantasy and reality is one. I don’t want you that way, never have and never will.”
And her dream of the sweetest came to an untimely death. He said he didn’t want her. Never will and never have. He doesn’t love her, he doesn’t love her. It played back in her mind like one of those catchy songs that refused to leave.
She didn’t cry, no she trembled in her disappointment but she didn’t cry. How could she?
“I better not catch you do anything this stupid ever again or else I am not responsible for taking you over my knees and beat the crap out of you.” He said with such warning she chilled.
With her being sexy as she could, standing in his room bare feet and a nightgown that if given more inspection it was fairly see through, and he thought about spanking her like she had misbehaved?
“Minta…” He called her name and even in her state of mind it sounds like another fire adding up to the flame that is engulfing her lungs.
“I was wrong.” She said with nothing left of her.
“Minta, it is not what you want. You think you do but you don’t. If you have given yourself to me what happens next? You will regret it and we would have ended up hating each other.”
She didn’t catch all of that, only a few words in between. She was numb from head to toes. She had pretty much served herself on a silver platter to him and he so roughly shove her away.
“I won’t bother you ever again.” She said with as much conviction as she could.
“Minta, that’s not what I mean. You are a part of my life and I promise to watch over you long ago I will keep to that.”
She shook her head, unable to speak. All along she was nothing but a responsibility to him. She was just a girl that nobody wants, not even her father. She was a burden to everyone around her and he was the only one that was nice enough to take her under his wings…as a girl that had lost her place in the big, monstrous world.
Minta laughed strangely.
“Minta, you know how much I love you.”
But you are not in love with me, she finished for him silently.
She laughed again.
Sila seemed to lose her, he can feel it in every fiber of his being.
“You are just a girl that doesn’t know her own heart, I am not the man you want when you experience the ways of the world. You’ll grow out of your infatuation for me. I promise that.” He bit out the last part.
A breaking smile came to her lips as she walked aimlessly to the door. Not bothering to fix her nightgown, she didn’t see the use in it frankly, he didn’t want her that way, didn’t see her in that light even if she stood there naked he probably run to the bed and grab the blanket to wrap around her until she suffocate.
All but the world had fallen to her feet. She had lost the only person that meant more than life itself to her. Nobody wants her at the end, no one. She dreamed a dream that was never real. She wanted him so badly she didn’t see the fact in front of her face, he didn’t want her. He just felt sorry for her.
Sila reached for her but stopped and pulled his hand back. She touched the door then turned to him. Her head barely reach his shoulder, looking up with dead eyes she was gone from him, in every way.
“Good-bye Sila.” She stood on tiptoes, pulled his face to hers and kissed his cheek because she couldn’t help it and left with as much dignity as she could muster.
“Minta…” Sila called out but the door shut in his face and he too felt like she had completely slipped out of his hands and forever out of his life. He walked to the bed and gave it a good kick.
Minta walked to her car with tears blinding her. She vowed to never throw herself at a man again especially Sila.
Tonight’s going to be it. Minta thought with utmost certainty. She was going to give herself to the one man that she had loved over the last four years. He has been the only steady thing in her life that has not turned his back on her.
She thought about how he would react, it will be a shock that much she can guarantee. She looked at herself in the tiny mirror. There wasn’t much to fix, her hair has always been boring with a few layers and never has it changed but she’s not going to put too much stock in it. He did once, told her that her hair was nice, and he liked it the way it is. She smiled.
He was a handsome man in his worldly ways. His eyes when they look at her were just as clear as the blue sky, as fresh as the blue sea. They are beautiful whether he was angry with her or when they are just giving her a simple look. Those eyes never hold a grudge towards her and had given her more support and love than anyone in her life, including her drunken father that can’t manage to stay in one place.
She brushed the side of her hair away, to reveal her neck, looking at her nightgown that isn’t the most sexy or fashionable but she’ll just have to make do with what she has. It would serve its purpose since she didn’t think it was going to stay on her that long.
She walked out, looking at her small place. She was going to missed it dearly once she moves out. Closing the door behind her, she doesn’t want to think about life after tonight, reality if she could control will stay away for a few hours. Tomorrow will be a day that she’ll face it as a woman and holds the world on her shoulders by herself. The thought brought a depressing sigh, closing the door she heads out to her car and making way to the one place that will changed her.
Minta stood at the door now a little nervous while she prepared herself to enter his place. She held the key in her hand, and then started to unlock the door quietly. His house was the perfect size for a bachelor. It wasn’t too big nor was it too small and she loved it, she knows the place like the back of her hand, since she split her time between her apartment and here.
She walked to his room like a ghost roaming the hall. The cold hardwood floor reminded her every step with what she’s about to do, but there’s no regret. She’s already here and touching the doorknob to his room, turning it with expert hands, feeling like a thief in the night she got it open in no time.
Minta paused looking at the man she loved with all her heart sleeping soundlessly. She saw his bare chest rising and falling, it was beautiful and one that she had the luxury to lean on many times.
She straightened her nightgown and making as little noise as possible slipped into bed next to him. Looking up the ceiling she said a little prayer hoping her plan would be as successful as she had it in her head. Feeling the warmth from his body she snuggled closer. Turning to him, she yawned when suddenly his arm came around her waist pulling her deeper into bed and touching his chest, her eyes became alert and she was no longer sleepy.
Sila made a satisfaction sound in the night or was it his dream when his arm lay effortlessly on a soft body. He smiled thinking it was a dream and pulled the body even closer. He could smell the berry scent from her hair, taking a deep breath to hold the scent in his nostril his lips curled in a form of a man that held his fantasy in the palm of his hand.
Whoever the girl is, she felt so good next to him, all warm and sexually appealing. Her breasts, smalls ones that is, but he doesn’t mind. He had always been attracted to a petite girl. They held a special place in his heart.
His fingers moved lazily inch by inch up her body, he felt her moaned and squirmed at the same time. His leg moved to cross over hers and a small gasp he thought came out of her mouth. He sure can do something to suppress the sound.
His desire moving fast and he seemed impatient to want her, grabbing for her face he leaned in and took her mouth in his. He felt her paused and a little stiff. He relaxed her by trailing his fingers up and down her body in a seductive movement that seemed to work, her lips soft, molding perfectly to his.
Sila’s lips moved gently at first then took hers possessively and eagerly leaving her breathless, his hand moved to her nightgown and started to remove it but only managed to yank it to one side of her shoulder. Kissing her neck, he moaned feeling the way she offered herself to him without reservation. Whoever she is in his dream, he doesn’t mind her visiting often.
He kissed her lower and lower when suddenly out of the blue he opened his eyes, and when he did shock and horror came instantly to Sila, he shoved her off the bed so hard, Minta landed on the floor knocking her head with a thud, leaving her laying there for a few seconds catching her unsteady breaths.
Sila ran to the door and turned the lights on, when he saw Minta slowly revealing herself, he was knocked speechless and stood there staring at her with unbelievable eyes. What the…
“What the hell are you doing here in the middle of the night?” He roared angry at himself that he was a fool to think it was a dream.
Minta blinked in surprise to say the least at the way he reacted, her lips were swollen from his kisses, her nightgown still hanging loosely to one side of her shoulder and her hair, as usually in straight perfect place.
She stared at him as he was trying so hard to keep under control. The way his hands curled into fists beside him, his breathing hadn’t quite come back to normal yet. His bare chest, she thought looked magnificent in the light. He stood there like a man that held her dreamy little heart in his hand and now squeezing the life out of it. She almost chocked on a sob that is boiling inside of her.
Sila was beside himself, Minta? What crazy idea did she came up with to sneak in his room in the middle of the night? She had lost her mind. He had lost his mind.
He took in a few deep breaths to calm himself more so to give the other part of his body that is throbbing from kissing her to return to normal once again. She looked vulnerable all of a sudden, unsure of herself. Then she looked up at him and he wanted to strangle her for being defiant.
“I thought, I taught you better than to sneak in a man’s room. This is not who you are? Or are you trying to be a girl that holds no value to who she is once she’s about to be twenty- one?”
The question was like a slap in the face to her causing Minta to take a step backward. And all she could think was he didn’t want her. Didn’t love her the way she had loved him. And for one sad moment Minta saw pity in his eyes while hers is starting to die.
“I thought you want me?” Her voice was weak, her heart though beating into a sound of nothing more than a faint noise that is about to vanished all together.
“You are nothing but a kid, who thinks fantasy and reality is one. I don’t want you that way, never have and never will.”
And her dream of the sweetest came to an untimely death. He said he didn’t want her. Never will and never have. He doesn’t love her, he doesn’t love her. It played back in her mind like one of those catchy songs that refused to leave.
She didn’t cry, no she trembled in her disappointment but she didn’t cry. How could she?
“I better not catch you do anything this stupid ever again or else I am not responsible for taking you over my knees and beat the crap out of you.” He said with such warning she chilled.
With her being sexy as she could, standing in his room bare feet and a nightgown that if given more inspection it was fairly see through, and he thought about spanking her like she had misbehaved?
“Minta…” He called her name and even in her state of mind it sounds like another fire adding up to the flame that is engulfing her lungs.
“I was wrong.” She said with nothing left of her.
“Minta, it is not what you want. You think you do but you don’t. If you have given yourself to me what happens next? You will regret it and we would have ended up hating each other.”
She didn’t catch all of that, only a few words in between. She was numb from head to toes. She had pretty much served herself on a silver platter to him and he so roughly shove her away.
“I won’t bother you ever again.” She said with as much conviction as she could.
“Minta, that’s not what I mean. You are a part of my life and I promise to watch over you long ago I will keep to that.”
She shook her head, unable to speak. All along she was nothing but a responsibility to him. She was just a girl that nobody wants, not even her father. She was a burden to everyone around her and he was the only one that was nice enough to take her under his wings…as a girl that had lost her place in the big, monstrous world.
Minta laughed strangely.
“Minta, you know how much I love you.”
But you are not in love with me, she finished for him silently.
She laughed again.
Sila seemed to lose her, he can feel it in every fiber of his being.
“You are just a girl that doesn’t know her own heart, I am not the man you want when you experience the ways of the world. You’ll grow out of your infatuation for me. I promise that.” He bit out the last part.
A breaking smile came to her lips as she walked aimlessly to the door. Not bothering to fix her nightgown, she didn’t see the use in it frankly, he didn’t want her that way, didn’t see her in that light even if she stood there naked he probably run to the bed and grab the blanket to wrap around her until she suffocate.
All but the world had fallen to her feet. She had lost the only person that meant more than life itself to her. Nobody wants her at the end, no one. She dreamed a dream that was never real. She wanted him so badly she didn’t see the fact in front of her face, he didn’t want her. He just felt sorry for her.
Sila reached for her but stopped and pulled his hand back. She touched the door then turned to him. Her head barely reach his shoulder, looking up with dead eyes she was gone from him, in every way.
“Good-bye Sila.” She stood on tiptoes, pulled his face to hers and kissed his cheek because she couldn’t help it and left with as much dignity as she could muster.
“Minta…” Sila called out but the door shut in his face and he too felt like she had completely slipped out of his hands and forever out of his life. He walked to the bed and gave it a good kick.
Minta walked to her car with tears blinding her. She vowed to never throw herself at a man again especially Sila.