Kiachue1
FF Writer!! Love it!
HI guys it's been a long time hasn't it? LOL I know I haven't finish my other stories. But I've decided oneshots are probably better for me to start writing again.
One Shot: It’s Because I’m Missing You Today
Life is funny isn’t it? One day where happy and another were sad. I’m wondering where you are my love. At this moment in time, where are you that I’m missing you today? It’s been a long distance for us hasn’t it? Life’s been miserable without you don’t you think so? Aren’t you just so cruel to me haven’t you, my darling? How come I’m missing you today? You’ve been gone for so long haven’t you? I’ve learn to live without you haven’t I? Or is it just because today I’m missing you like crazy that I can’t stop thinking about you? This world is so cold to us, am I right?
I still remember your shining black hair flowing in the wind. Your glamorous eyes that smiled so sweetly with admirable peach lips. Along with your fare golden pale skin. You were so sweet weren’t you? Weren’t we? And now I can barely remember your soft sweet voice. You’re only a memory to me now, everything about you have lost in me. And I know, I know that no matter how many times I see you again or even try you won’t come back to me. I know but I still can’t get over us just yet. How can I, we were once so in love weren’t we? But now, what happen to us that were like this? Was I too selfish that you left me for someone else? Or was I stupid not to have seen you were so miserable with me instead?
I never knew. Never knew, I treated you so bad. I never knew you were so sick of me. I NEVER KNEW. Why didn’t you speak up? Why didn’t you say anything to me? Why didn’t you get me straight so we could had work this out? I miss you. I miss you. I miss you today……..I miss you.
Huh! Look at me now. Pathetic! A loser. A nobody! Just look at me now girl, wouldn’t you be happy to see me so messed up. Wouldn’t you want to see me drinking myself to death? You would be happy to see me so fucked up. I don’t know why I’m feeling this way at all. I’m a bi-polar fucked up aren’t I? You probably hate me more than you did when you left wouldn’t you? You will probably start laughing at me wouldn’t you? Wouldn’t you! God, I’m so messed up I can’t even think straight anymore.
What’s wrong with me, to be missing a women like you today? You left me! But why do I feel regret? You left me. You left me……. Shouldn’t you be the one regretting? Shouldn’t you be the one? I just don’t understand, why I’m missing you. I don’t understand........
As I stand here, this porch light, this street......I can see her. Cassie. She's walking out of her apartment now and as she takes the trash out of her front door she spots me while throwing her trash away into the dumpster. Her gaze meets mine, while I stare back at her. She's speechless for a moment but in the distance, someone else caught her attention. A man stood outside her door waiting for her and for once she smiles up at the other man and forgets about me. Her man, her husband reaches out for her hand and helps her back into the house and they walk together back up the stairs where I can see her through the window. In arms link together, she kisses him passionately and now I know. She will never hate me but she will also never come back to me. She has moved on to a better man, way better than me. Someone who could protect her and give her a house. A warm bed to sleep in and a home cook meal. She has a man who could give her love and respect. Maybe that was one of the things I couldn't give her and so I move from my spot and finally leave, this time I'm making sure I never come back here again. She deserves to be happy and I shouldn't make it complicated for her, no matter how much I miss her. For today, it's because I'm missing her and It'll be my last.