So I'm a person who worries A LOT..there's no way I can stop worrying unless I'm reassured over and over. I don't like this part of me. I have this really close friend..and bc of past friend ships I keep thinking she will back stab me later on. I'm so scared of losing them..that I'm constantly clinging on as if they will slip away. Even though I know she is there..my constant worryin has made it seem like she is tired of it all. She reassures me she's there whether i'm crazy or not but I can't shake the feeling that she may just be like ughh..enoughh already..and leave. I fear she will get closer to others..and it makes me scared bc I trust her with so much and I know she trusts me too. She's been there for me thru everything. I am very open n honest with her. She isn't the emotional type so she doesnt talk a lot but she will eventually tell me. She has told me if i keep thinking that we will stop being friends we will. I know we will both cont to meet ppl and get close to them. I just dont want to be that friend that came and went. How can i change this part of me and learn to let things be and be grateful for everything I have? I guess you can say I'm afraid of change.